I typed out 3/4 of my reply, and then somehow lost it. So this time I
put it on Notepad first.
[Unfortunately Bob didn't separate the original from his
responses. I've added : to what I *think* is the posting
he was responding to. --clh]
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:This phrasing I used last time came from a song
:I remember from my ancient days in a Christian
:youth group. The song was entitled "The Moment
:of Truth", and, referring to God, it said (approx.
:quote from memory): "He'll help you get it all
:together when your life is falling all apart."
:He didn't do that; this has added to my
:disillusionment.
[job loss, etc. story here]
There have been times when I've been pretty disillusioned with God.
The most accurately prophetic person I've known was my first
Protestant pastor, although I'm Catholic now. He once said he thought
there'd come a time when I'd become "completely disillusioned" with
God. I suppose as yet unknown, although suspected, personal and
collective experiences will have something to do with that.
I won't say much about suspected individual experiences, but since God
has been sending Mary with dire warnings for about 150 years (I think
she's the woman of the sun in Chapter 12 of Revelation) and given Pope
Leo XIII had a dire vision around 1884 of the devil boasting he could
destroy the church given enough time, and being granted about a
century, and considering human history since that time (2 world wars,
concentration camps, holocaust, gulags, more Christian martyrs than
all the rest of history combined, the nuclear bomb, bioligical and
chemical warfare, the enormous number of abortions where we kill our
own unborn, the proliferationg drug trade, terrorism, global warming,
the exploitation of poor by rich), it seems the vision was real. You
can find references on the net.
And I think we're in for more.
,
Post by Bob CrowleyPost by j***@go.comGod has given me no help and no direction and no
love....
As for no help and no direction, one of the tests of faith is when God
leaves you in what might be called a "dark night of the soul". =A0For
Christians with a deep mystical slant, this may mean something
different, but for a Christian in the world, a "dark night of the
soul" can simply be His perceived absence.
:I'm well aware of the term and its origin in the
:writings of John of the Cross. (FYI, I've recently
:done something I should have known better than
:to do: read a book by a best-selling author, in
:this case the ex-Catholic monk Thomas Moore.
:The book in question: _Dark Nights of the Soul_;
:I can't say I got much out of it.) The obvious
:rejoinder is: If God wants us to do His will,
:He's defeating His own purpose if He doesn't
:tell us what it is.
[short snip]
I suppose I've got the advantages of some personal experiences which
means I can't deny God's existence or "interference" for that matter.
To give an example of somebody else's experience - I see a Catholic
psychiatrist a couple of times a year - the tail end of treatment for
depression. I saw him last Wednesday, and I mentioned a couple of
instances of voices telling me relevant things, he told me of his own
recent experience. He was sitting in his office, minding his own
business, when a voice suddenly said "Go to Maclean". Maclean is a
small town in Northern New South Wales in Australia. A couple of
months later he was running a 'family healing' session at Lismore not
far from Maclean. After the service an aborigional woman came up to
him, and said, "I don't want to sound silly, or interfere, but I seem
to be told you should go to Maclean."
Obviously he'd been primed by the voice. Now God doesn't work as we'd
expect. Out of a trillion galaxies, He zeroed down to this planet,
and out of 6 billion people, zeroed down to one psychiatrist, one of
His people, and gave him a three word message. He knew the man would
meet the aboriginal woman and that there was some need the
psychiatrist could fulfit. The psychiatrist ended up on an island in
the local river where Aboriginals used to be incarcerated in bygone
days.
God is still active and He still speaks.
Post by Bob CrowleyIn today's affluent society we don't hear much of suffering, but one
of Christ's promises is that we'll suffer. =A0If Christians don't
suffer, what's the difference between them and their equally affluent
atheist neighbour? =A0Practically nothing.
:Ah-HAH! You've put the finger right on the disease
:of a good many upscale Christians who don't
:recognize that that phrase is arguably an
:oxymoron, who apparently believe that they
:CAN serve God and Mammon [heck, during
:the recent stretch with Republey icans controlling
:both Congress and the White House, that was
:enacted into U.S. law! 1/2 :-) ]. Curiously,
:God does nothing to disabuse them of this
:belief -- another reason to avoid the churches;
:seeing that "Judgment must begin at the house
:of God" (I Peter 4:17), that's the last place one
:wants to be if God ever starts judging, which tons
:of Christian preachers (especially broadcasters)
:make tons of hay out of claiming the imminence of.
[snip]
God won't disabuse them either. They'll go on believing it, despite
what Christ said about a rich man having great difficulty getting into
heaven. They believe not because God's told them to believe it, but
because they've told themselves what they want to believe. He might
get through to a handful, but most of them will go on and then wonder
why their riches are held against them at the judgement.
Post by Bob Crowleywhen Paul was having his back slashed by the thirty nine
lashes, do you think he felt God's overwhelming assurance.
:I don't know about *God's* assurance. Remember, he was
:a fairly unreconstructed Pharisee, wh', in keeping with many
:religious extremists (perhaps, in an unusual way, including
:myself), swung from one extreme to the other; thus he may
:well have been assured of his *own* rightness, quite enough
:to carry him through.
I suspect Paul had an advantage in the business about the "third
heaven". While He didn't know if it was real or a vision (visions are
like that, besides being extremely rapid, in the sense they seem to
give a great deal of sensory input in a very short time), it obviously
stayed with him. Christ also had a similar advantage, when Moses and
Elijah (representing the law and the prophets) appeared at the
Transfiguration, despite being physically dead for centuries, and
there was the angel who "strengthened" him.
Post by Bob Crowley=A0How about
Christ's desolation? =A0"My God, my God, why have you
abandoned me? Easter time, too.
:That ties up with my previous point about rewriting
:Romans 8:32, that if God didn't spare His own Son,
:He certainly won't spare us. Anyway, it wasn't
:"Easter" until after the Resurrection, if such an
:event occurred.
It occurred. Otherwise there'd be no church,and the history of the
Jews would be immensely different. Easter reminds us it occurred.
Post by Bob CrowleyI found life pretty easy until I was about fifteen, and then one night
:Why you didn't bail on God right there and then
:I don't know, just as I don't understand why
:Abraham didn't bail on God after God told him
:his descendants would be enslaved for 400
:years. Maybe I can understand Abraham ---
:after all, God still promised that he would
:*have* descendants, though He did torture
:Abraham by keeping him waiting way too
:long, hence Ishmael, whose descendants,
:as promised, have long clashed with the
:rest of the world -- but I can't understand you.
:
:If the writings of Ayn Rand are available in
:Australia, I would recommend them as a
:useful corrective even though you may not
:agree with everything in them (just as I'm
:not saying that I do). I remember that in
:her novel _Atlas Shrugged_, one of the
:good characters (maybe the heroine, but
:I don't remember for sure) has an internal
:monologue reading in part, "There is no
:necessity for pain -- why, then, is the
:worst pain reserved for those who will
:not accept its necessity?" And in _The
:Fountainhead_, which I read for the first
:time recently, one character who could
:have been a hero but messed up says
:(approximate quote from memory):
:"By what right can anyone tell you
:that man should live for anything but
:his own joy?"
[snip]
I did bail out on God for a while, but it didn't do me much good. I
read "Atlas Shrugged" years ago, and it is the only Ayn Rand book I've
read. I don't think much of her self centred philosophy. Christ told
us to be servants, and to be the greatest one had to be the least.
The business about whether we live for our own joy or not, will be
determined by the Judgement. Christ warned us what would happen if we
made a habit of ignoring the "least of his brothers", no matter how
much we relied on "Faith alone".
Post by Bob CrowleySuggest you go to a Christian singles group, but don't get too carried
:I've got at least two, if not three strikes (OK, pardon
:the baseballism) against me in such a milieu:
:1) I'm not really a Christian any more.
:2) I'm overweight, perhaps even clinically
:obese, with a sizable paunch.
:3) I'm old enough that some people in
:restaurants have started giving me the
:senior discount, even though I'm not
:old enough to actually qualify for it yet;
:I guess I just look like a soon-to-be corpse.
You're the only one who can do anything about that, assuming there's
no medical cause, other than overeating and too little exercise. It
sounds like you need an exercise program, although if you're depressed
and negative you'll find it hard to get started.
Post by Bob CrowleyI think you're being tested. =A0You're probably pretty tough, although
:Maybe I *used* to be tough, when I stood up
:to what was then part of AT&T, prophesying
:as I described, but that was probably the
:courage of despair, not real heart and certainly
:not real toughness (that's reserved for heroes
:in Louis L'Amour's fiction, most of it set in
:the American West of the 1800s -- my
:reading is remarkably diverse).
Post by Bob CrowleyPost by j***@go.comI'd lay off the moralising if I were you. =A0If he is going to be
:What action? All I did was warn him that
:another person in a somewhat similar pleasant
:situation (though Job was probably richer)
:suddenly found himself in the deep stuff with
:God's full knowledge and approval.
[snip]
Getting back to my old pastor, only once did he ever preach a sermon
at a particular individual. Apparently some bloke really had been
causing a lot of trouble in one of his churches. So he preached a
sermon at him. Everybody else in the church knew it too.
At the end of the service, the very man came up to the pastor, slapped
him heartily on the back, shook his hand very warmly, and said in a
loud voice, "Good on you, Brother! That was JUST what THEY needed!"
The pastor wondered if the Lord was trying to tell him something. He
never again preached at anybody. That didn't mean the rest of us
always felt comfortable during his sermons.
Unless the Lord gives you a specific message for someone, it is most
unwise to "preach" or "prophesy" at them.
Post by Bob CrowleyForgiveness from the point of view of the forgiver is an emotional
experience. =A0God may not need forgiveness in the sense that He is
supreme, but He can be very hurtful, and to be quite truthful,
unfair. =A0He's actually unfair to a lot of people in this life.
Therefore it pleases God, and makes Him feel like He's got a friend,
when one of His people is prepared to forgive His "unfairness".
:Hmmm??? Let's see: God, who is supposed to be
:perfectly just, isn't; He doesn't live up to His own
:standards. An imperfect human being can be forgiven
:for sins and failures, but to do so is often very
:difficult, especially when the human being is
:oneself. One who claims to be perfect, and Whom
:all His propagandists claim to be perfect, cannot
:be forgiven when He isn't. This is not being
:legalistic; it's a visceral case of utter disillusionment
:-- i.e., removal of an illusion, the illusion that God
:is good and will be good to us. According to the
:Trinitarian formulation (though I have to agree with
:the people who think that a bit bizarre), He's got
:friends within Himself anyway; He doesn't need us.
[snip]
God is just in the sense that He judges truthfully. Injustice and
immorality between humans (which is what it usually boils down to) is
for God a tool. Even the devil's a tool.
I remember complaining to the old pastor "what the hell did God make
the devil for?" He thought about it for a minute, shrugged, and said
"Oh, he's got a job to do I suppose". And in the end, that's probably
what he's there for, a catalyst in human affairs, such that we are
forced to decide who we're going to serve - God or the devil.
Post by Bob CrowleyThen look at Christ rather than Paul.
:I did, in the first sentence of the above
:paragraph, and He didn't look too good.
:Remember that I've written before about
:how Jesus healed one person at the pool
:of Bethesda (John 5) AND LEFT THE
:REST SICK!! That's unforgivable.
When I read this episode I get the impression the bloke didn't want to
get healed. He could lie there for years on end, in pleasant
surroundings, do no work, take no responsibility, make no hard
decisions, and get everybody to feel sorry for him. Christ's later
warning to him that "Something worse might happen" carries with the
implication that finally something worse did happen to him. Nor are
we told if Christ healed other people there or not. For some reason
the Gospel writer wrote about this invalid who preferred to stay an
invalid.
Post by Bob Crowley=A0And as you read Paul, you find
:Evidently; look at the anathemas he
:pronounced with such fervor in Galatians
:1:8-9 on those who disagreed with him
:-- anathemas which have, unfortunately,
:been considered "the Word of God" ever
:since. If Paul had truly been acting with
:love, he would have prayed that those who
:disagreed with him, preaching "another
:gospel", would have a Damascus Road
:experience like his and be saved -- not
:that they be accursed.
[snip]
No one said Paul was perfect, least of all Paul himself.
As for paradoxes in the Bible and human history, there are scores of
them. Ananias and Sapphira died after one lie at Peter's command -
Manasseh, possibly Israel's worst king ruled for 55 years. Dietrich
Bonhoeffer was executed by the Nazis at around 40 years of age -
Stalin died in his bed as an old man. They're all over the place. Why
were Cambodians subject to Pol Pot and not Americans? Why did the US
have a civil war, and Australia not?
Post by Bob CrowleyI don't think we know what it cost God to give up His Son. =A0What Paul
was saying was that if God was prepared to suffer such intense
emotional and spiritual pain as He experienced in letting Christ be
crucified, then He must be prepared to give us a place in heaven. =A0Or
He would not have demanded such a high price of Christ or Himself.
:I have multiple difficulties with this paragraph:
:1) How can one logically conceive of God suffering
:any kind of pain? That would mean that something
:had the power to cause God pain, and would thus
:deny God's omnipotence.
For God to create anything, He has to at least have an intellectual
idea of it. He doesn't need food or water or air or sex or material
items, yet He created the lot based on His own imagination. That must
include pain. And what is "pain"? For us it's a message from the
brain, based on a minute electrical current, conveyed by certain nerve
cells. For spiritual beings, it must be something else again, since
they have no body. But it's real enough as we all know. It can be
used to warn that something is wrong and needs to be fixed.
It can also be used to punish. A sea of fire mixed with glass doesn't
sound promising from the anaesthetic point of view.
:2) If God could "feel our pain" (a la Bill e
:Clinton's infamous phrase), He wouldn't
:let it go on so long. Of course that's not
:strictly relevant to your paragraph. But I
:can't conceive of God as feeling *any* pain
:or, therefore, paying any price.
If we're made in His image, then He must have something that equates
to emotions. I know He can get angry - I've felt it on occasion. I
also know He has a sense of humour, from experience. Our sense of
humour is a shadow of His. He also feels pity - I know that from
experience. And He can have his feelings hurt.
:3) Supposing a life after this earthly
:life exists, a) why should anyone assume
:that a God who treats us so scurvily on
:earth will be any nicer after we die --
:i.e., why would anyone believe it will
:actually be a *heaven*, b) therefore,
:why would we want "a place in heaven"?
A lot of mistreatment is caused by humans when it is all said and
done. True there are natural disasters and disease, but with
cooperative effort we can do a lot to minimise the effects. But most
deliberate suffering - war, injustice, economic selfishness,
environmental stupidity, is caused by humans.
I think the harshness might also be God's warning to us that He IS
going to judge us. And the indications are that He's not very soft.
I suppose it boils down to faith. Meanwhile the devil will do all he
can to discourage our faith, usually by disconsolation.
Post by Bob CrowleyOn the other hand, it would be most unwise to reject Christ on the
:I still say God's actions show that He already
:holds us in contempt. If you treated someone
:you knew the way you say God has treated
:you, especially for such a long period, you
:would be considered to have acted with
:contempt and therefore richly deserving of
:contempt; so is He.
[snip]
My human father treated me with contempt. The old pastor, while I
admired him, also discouraged me. In the end he apologised also. So
my natural father was cruel and contemptous; my spritual father was
discouraging. That is why I tend to be cynical about God's
"fatherhood". Incidentally the night my human father died, he turned
up in my room, and started with an apology (odd, since he died ten
kilometres away). Since it was nearly 30 years ago now, I don't
remember if he said "I've come to apologise ..." or "I've been sent to
apologise ..." I think it was the latter. At the very end he gave
this terrifying scream and promptly disappeared.
I think God may have sent him to apologise, after which he went to
Hell.
Post by Bob CrowleyYou're still here, and you haven't given up, or you wouldn't be
:In a sense my faith is still there; note my
:implied call, earlier in this article, to a
:Christianity purer than the Mammonolatry
:that is often sold under the Christian brand.
:But I don't really have any place else to
:turn for support; it's a pity that the person
:from whom I get the most support is not
:conveniently located to meet [it's a long
:drive, with poor roads, across the Pacific :-)].
You're unlikely to change the Mammonolatry. What you can do however
is live your own Christian life. And two blokes recently rowed across
the Tasman Sea. You never know.
Post by Bob CrowleyI'll say it again. =A0I think you're fairly tough, and you're being
harshly tested.
:OK, I flunked. And if He wanted to
:test *me*,
Peter flunked.
Thomas flunked.
The disciples flunked.
John Newton (Amazing Grace) flunked.
The Borgia Popes flunked (really flunked).
:He didn't have to let my
:mother (remember, I mentioned she
:died a couple of months ago) be
:collateral damage. He wasn't
:fair to her, except in that she
:won't have to deal with some of
:the problems of old age.
Christ's step father died when Christ was young (although I believe
Joseph was probably a cruel stepfather).
My family are all dead. My sister died nearly 3 years ago from
leukaemia leaving 2 teens and a young son behind, although they had
the benefit of an outstanding husband and father who remained.
This life is often unfair. The Bible never said it would be fair,
unless one takes a few somewhat wishful OT proverbs as ultimate
guides. The Jews weren't treated fairly, despite being "God's
people".
:The only possible good coming out of
:all this, including my inability to get
:interested in anything (the "years...
:when [I] say 'I have no pleasure in
:them'" [Ecclesiastes 12:1] having
:arrived awfully early), is that I begin
:to ask what I really am at bottom,
:what sort of life would spring from the
:innermost parts of my being if it
:could -- i.e., how to live a genuinely
:authentic life, rather than working
:hard to be authentic (i.e., faking
:authenticity, another oxymoron).
:God or gods as conceived by any
:major religion can only interfere
:with this process; even an old
:pagan god I feel friendly toward
:(Odin) probably won't be much help.
:
:o in that aspect I may be making
:a wee modicum of progress. But
:I'm hardly tough -- or happy.
Maybe God's forcing you to an arid dryness that will burn everything
else away so that in the end all that's left is Him.
Hebrews 12:25-29 "See that you do not refuse the one who is speaking:
for if they did not escape when they refused the one who warned them
on earth, how much less will we escape if we reject the one who warns
them from heaven! At that time his voice shook the earth; but now he
has promised, "Yet once more I will shake not only the earth but also
the heaven. This phrase, "Yet once more," indicates the removal of
what is shaken - that is, created things - so that what cannot be
shaken will remain...."
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This 'shaking' isn't very pleasant. In the end all that is left is
the solid core. Everything else is stripped away.